第一次知道這部劇是某任男友推薦，他覺得我有些NPD傾向，說我可能會喜歡看這部劇，由于當時有抵觸心理 ，所以看的時候沒有想過他是在影射我。后來每次分手都會重新看一遍，每次都會發現更多細節。目前的感覺是NPD的世界里真的只有自己，人生劇本中的故事線只有一條，無法體會別人的感受，所以無法意識到自己傷害或間接的利用善良的朋友和伴侶。身邊的人會一個個失望的離開，然后NPD最后還會覺得自己是受害者。 怎么說呢？就是自作孽不可活，Krama is a bitch。 自己曾經如何對待別人，未來的某一天就會有一個人施加一個完全一樣的反作用力給自己，總會輪到自己品嘗惡果的。 但是無論失敗多少次都不能放棄自己，要繼續努力學習好好做人。 NPD的特征： 1. 夸大自我重要性，例如夸大自己的才華并期待被人看重； 2. 永遠專注于成功、權力、美貌、或是理想愛情等幻想中； 3. 認為自己獨特，僅能被其他特殊人物或高位者所認可并與之相關聯； 4. 需要過度的稱贊； 5. 不合理的認為自己有特殊權力或獲得他人無條件順從； 6. 處理人際關系時顯得自私，好以占便宜來滿足自己的利益需求； 7. 缺乏同理心︰不愿意認同和感受他人的情感需求； 8. 常嫉妒別人或認為別人嫉妒他； 9. 常有傲慢行為或態度，顯得自高自大。 10. 自戀型人格障礙的患者可能強烈羨慕某些族群，并渴望成為同類人，因而偽裝成對方，期待獲得等同的羨慕。 女主還參加了 Sex & Love addiction 的互助會，這里也列舉下病癥 Characteristics of a Sex Addict

Engaging with multiple sexual partnersNeeding more sexual activity or more extreme forms to feel the same pleasureEngaging in risky sexual behaviorTrying to stop but being unable toNeglecting personal and financial responsibilities in favor of sexual activityObsessively Thinking about sexBeing unable to be intimate with a partner because it does not produce the desired level of pleasure or induces feelings of guiltContinuing to engage in sexual activity despite it causing problems at home or in other areas of the sufferer’s life.

Characteristics of a love addict

Feeling a constant need to be in a relationshipCommitting to and falling in love with a partner without really knowing themConstantly moving from one relationship to another in search of loveNever feeling satisfied within a relationshipBecoming obsessed with and overly reliant on a partnerStaying in an abusive relationship for the sake of being in a relationshipSuffering from severe depression and destructive behaviors after breaking up with a partnerMaking personal sacrifices in order to please a partnerNeglecting their own needs and needs of family in order to be with a partnerIsolating from friends, neglecting personal responsibilities and finances when with a partnerBeing jealous and possessive when a partner talks to or spends time with other people.

Causes of a Sex or Love Addiction

Family history–Sex and love addictions can be learned behaviors, and if a child is brought up in a home where one partner is a love addict, that child may go on to believe that this behavior is normal and so continue the cycle.Hormones–Some individuals have higher hormone levels than others; this can affect their sex drive. Those with high levels of sex hormones may be compelled to engage in excessive sexual activity, as all they can think about is sex and seeking gratification.Traumatic experiences– Those who have suffered emotional, physical, or sexual abuse in childhood or during their first encounters with relationships, may be more prone to developing a sex or love addiction. Their traumatic experience(s) is all they have to go on in terms of what a relationship should look like. Low self-esteem and self-worth can drive the individual to seek out love and sex in the wrong places and with the wrong people.Previous bad relationship–Individuals who have suffered previously in a bad relationship in the past, may feel unworthy or obsessed with the idea of being in love. They may seek out numerous relationships, desperate to feel loved; or they may stay too long in unloving and unkind relationships, feeling that is all they deserve. By carrying the baggage of their past bad experience(s) they will struggle to form healthy relationships with others.

希望有一天能夠珍惜身邊人，學會愛自己和愛別人。